I am just so tired of the same goddamn fight time after time. You ever feel like that? I have been a loyal and faithful wife for 15 long years although we have been married for 10 this May. I adore my husband and think he is a great man, sexy and just so good. However, he has a history of the wrong place, wrong time kind of thing. To make matters worse, there is someone in our live starting shit with him and now I have to limit my facebook and myspace. I just can't even stand it. I am jealous. I am the first one to admit it. It is MY problem. I feel he can do better than me and have thought that for 15 years. I am dealing with this now. However, there are women who prey upon this and I can't stand them. They are drama queens and start shit in my life where I don't need it. I just don't have the stomach for it, especially when HIS friend is starting bullshit. This is a friend who stole from us, has a criminal history and I CANT STAND and starts bullshit. I just don't get it. I can say, in front of ANYONE, I have been faithful for 15 years. I just don't know if he can and it kills my heart to think it.

I said I love you. He slammed the door. I cry. rinse and repeat.